I don’t know about your individual skill level, but just by reading your posts I can tell you don’t have the mentality/mindset/attitude to play for higher level teams. Your whining publicly about your old teams and teammates gives me the vibe you will just give up on your team when the first setback hits you. You might be a very good goalie by the individual skill level but working on your mentality and being patient really is the key here, prove your haters wrong by constant grinding and positive mindset instead. Embarrassing yourself publicly doesn’t get you anywhere.
Peace✌️